.....this week went by fast

I went and saw my Primary Care doctor on Tuesday.  She thinks my iron looks so much better.  I only have to take one pill a day now.  She said my Vit D is low so she want me to take some supplements.  She also got into how I am feeling, handling the idea of the upcoming surgery and such.  I told her I did not think I was depressed about it...just scared and sad.  I also told her I was worried that, especially the few days prior to surgery, I was concerned I would be more upset.  She gave me an RX for Xanex and told me to take it at night.  It would help with any out of control feelings I might have.  Well it's now Sat and I still have not even filled the RX.  I just hate pills.  I am concerned how they might make me feel.  I guess as I get closer, I might have a change of heart about them.  Especially if they will help me sleep.  Sleeping is so hard now.   I use to LOVE sleeping.....I could sleep till 11am on Saturdays if I was lucky enough to not have anything going on.....

Last full week of work this week.  Can you believe they are going to have lunch and a CAKE !! for me on Wednesday for my last day?   So sweet...everyone has been so amazing to me there...I guess I am just amazed because I have only been there 2 1/2 months. 

OK now on the the scar......I am getting better about the thought of it.  I am not so obsessed with worring about it as I was.  Everyone has their own opinion of it when we talk about it....well they are talking,  I am complaining.  Here is some of the very helpful advice I have heard this week:

"Well you could remain "perfect" and be buried or be alive with a small scar."

"You will get to purchase a brand new wardrobe"

"Just get a tattoo around it and no one will even notice the scar" (this one made me laugh)

"I think scars are sexy"

"It is not going to change who you are"

"After a few years.....it will hardly be noticeable"

So I am coming to terms with it....

-11 days to go
ps.  if you have something that might make me feel better about the scar....feel free to leave me a comment  :)